Vent.

Hey guys,

So I've been super stressed and overwhelmed lately and felt like writing would be the best way for me to vent. As I mentioned in a previous post, I'm hosting the first annual Bhangra State of Mind competition in Sacramento, California on November 9th. I was actually really excited until I realized how much work I need to take care of before my trip. The script writing, the work from all of my classes, the packing, filming my intro video and something else which I'll write a separate post about soon,  it really starts to add up. Don't get me wrong I'm still super excited, but I wish it could just be November 8th so I can get on that plane and be away from everyone on the East coast, even if it's only for 3 days. One issue that's been stressing me out is one (or two) things. My parents.  Although my dad's always been pretty supportive considering he's in the same field, of course every brown dad (or any dad in general) fears for his daughter traveling alone, specially for the first time. When booking my flights I guess my dad had a panic attack or something because he flipped out about me traveling alone. He claimed that according to protocol they should be paying for one parent to come with me. I understand that I'll always be his little girl but according to the US government and the rest of the world, I'm an adult. Gotta let me do my own thing some time.  Because of that argument I wasn't able to book my flights that night and I ended up seeming extremely unprofessional. Of course that wasn't a big deal to the organizers, who were totally chill and understood my situation, but it really bothered me. Knowing the industry and how to work with others, I don't understand why my dad didn't realize he was making me look bad. Is it just me or do some parents put up more of a front in front of others to show how "strict" they are. His theory is that if people know your parents are around, they won't bother you. That's true in a sense but it's also not professional and makes me look like I can't work on my own and that I'm a kid. Regardless I'm grateful for this opportunity and such a supporting father.
With my mom on the other hand, I feel like since I'm not becoming a doctor she thinks I'm not getting anywhere in life, which is never good. So I'm determined to prove her wrong. How do you guys deal with pressure from your parents? Do they really think that the techniques their parents used to raise them will be right to raise us? For me it's not just my parents. People in my extended family have unintentionally made comments which made me feel like crap. I know they don't mean it but the jokes make me feel as though my family doesn't even support me which is pretty sad. Anyways I'm just looking forward to this mini vacation and meeting a bunch of new people. It's the next step to following my dream. Also does anyone know how to cure a sore throat? I like lost my voice :( 

Not As Easy As it Seems

I know it's been forever since my last post and I'm so sorry..if anyone actually reads my blog that is. Lately I've been hearing something a lot that's actually been bothering me. "You're famous" or "You're a celebrity". Usually people would be flattered, but I'm really not. I don't feel as though I'm deserving enough of being labeled as "famous" or being considered a "celebrity" To me I think of Miss Pooja or Neeru Bajwa or someone when I think of the word celebrity. Yes, I have met artists and influential figures in the industry but that's not why I do what I do. I have chosen this career path to give people some positive role models to look up to. If it was for the popularity I don't think that I would be doing my job for the right reasons.
In this field, and even in general, many people come and go from your life according to their benefit or selfish motives. You'll eventually learn how to spot your true friends from your fake ones. I've met many people who have pretended to be my friend when they needed me to promote an event or play their song on my show, but this is why I keep things strictly professional. No matter how close you are to me, I will always follow protocol. Sorry to say this but if your song absolutely sucks, I will give you constructive criticism and a reason as to why I can not play your song whether you like it or not. In the end it's to the benefit of both of us. I will not play bad music on my show and you will get some honest feedback to improve your skills. When you have improved, I will gladly play your music. Actually, I would come and ask you myself to send me your new track to play on my show. Some people take this the wrong way saying I'm stuck up or conceited, but I actually wish I was. If I was conceited I would be able to be a bitch to people who have done me wrong in the past but for some reason I have never been able to do that. I still have such a long way to go before I'm "famous" it's not even funny. So when people tell me that I'm a celebrity I can't help but laugh in their faces. I'm so blessed to have many amazing opportunities come my way and many amazing supporters so I do appreciate every single one of you, but please don't try to gas me up before I even make it anywhere haha. My duty is first to be a sevadar to the community and then comes my role as an RJ and host.
I also want to mention the fact that people say I'm "so lucky" to be meeting some of the people I meet. No doubt, I am truly blessed, but it's not easy. I have worked tirelessly to make these meetings and interviews happen. They don't just come to me. Trust me, my job is not by any means easy. At the end of the day I don't consider myself "lucky" persay, but I believe that I have done my job well and have been successful in completing a certain task. That doesn't mean I don't become completely star struck when I meet someone (after all, I am human) but in the end of the day work is work and I try to do my job to the best of my ability. Most of the celebrities I have met have become huge role models for me. (The humble and down to earth ones at least) have influenced me in a very positive way every time I meet them. Their passion, love and respect for the work they do remind me that this career path, just like any, is a struggle, but if you love what you do it makes things a lot easier and it makes life worth living.